A Gloomy Day

Well, after another fun night of waking up at 3 am and not being able to fall back asleep until 6:30, I find myself in a weird spot today.

I'm really missing my friends back home. I love Colorado and I love it out here, I love our house and everything, but I really wish right now that we lived closer to everyone. I keep reading in these baby books and online that all of these people will be right there to help you and that when people offer to help to take them up on it after the birth. But that won't apply to us. None of our family are here to help and the only one of my friends who may be here to help out would be Katie Jarvi, but that all depends on her schedule and when I actually go into labor.

I guess I wouldn't feel so overwhelmed by the lack of actual physical support but I still feel like there's so much we don't have yet. If it weren't for my cousin Christina and my mom throwing me showers while I was back home, I would've never had one. Maybe it's just the pregnancy hormones, but I'm starting to feel really negatively about having this baby so far away from everyone back home. Back home I have the support system that all of these books talk about - my family, my friends, my in-laws - but here, I just have friends who I'm not really all that close with. At least, thank God, Chad will be here for labor and delivery. He might have to leave some time in January, but that's still nebulous, so I try not to think about that. And at least my mom and dad are coming for Thanksgiving and my in-laws are coming for Christmas, and Jarvi is for sure coming out in February, if she can't make it out for the birth. She's the only person other than Chad who will possibly be here for that very first part.

I don't know. I've just started feeling pretty negatively about living so far away from everyone who I've known for so long. It's hard, because I can't wait to meet my son and to see Chad being a father, but at the same time, I just feel really resentful of living so far away right now. It's not that I don't have friends out here, it's just that I don't really feel like they are friends I can really lean on. So if you live back home, and I call you up in the very near future, please just be a little kind - I'm feeling a little homesick is all.

Munchkin's Wardrobe

So, today I decided to wash all of the baby's things. I came to some realizations.

Newborn:

We have a ton of onesies, some sleepers, and only two pairs of pants, which are red. LOL It's a good thing we plan on swaddling, but I'm thinking I should probably buy a couple of pairs of pants in the blue family.

Three Months:

We have a TON of 3 mos. clothes. I think the window on that size is pretty much closed. Although, they do go through a ton of clothes, so yeah....

Six Months:

We've got a few sleepers, some shorts sets, quite a few onesies, could maybe stand to buy a few more pants/shorts to mix'n'match with onesies, but we've got a little ways to go on those.

Nine Months:

He's got two sleepers. That's it. Wow. Will really need to shop for that size grouping!!!

Twelve Months:

He's got one Chicago Bears romper/onesie set and two Milwaukee Brewers onesies.

After that..... we've got nada.

For other stuff, I've got two hooded towels, three bath mitts, a pile of bibs, no socks, and a few hats. So yeah, I've got to get some more that I should get. Not to mention all of the stuff still on the registry. My mom and I did make a dent the registries last week, since all we really had things-wise was the crib and a high chair. So my mom and I both bought quite a few things off the registry because I've been kind of freaking out over the fact that I've currently got 8 weeks left. So between the two of us, we got the travel system, the pack-n-play the baby bath, the diaper genie, the breast pump accessories (still lacking the breast pump, though), the changing pad, the changing pad covers, the Boppy, Boppy cover, diapering station organizer, extra base for infant car seat, some burp cloths, and some other things too. Still don't have the swing, or bouncy seat, or play mat, or similar items, so I guess we'll have to see what we see.